OUT OF YOUR PAIN, YOUR ADDICTION EMERGES.
OUT OF THE SHAME, THE GUILT, THE DENYING OF LOVE, etc, COMES THE SELF SABOTAGE, SELF PUNISHMENT, I DON'T DESERVE, SELF DEFEATING DRUG ADDICTIVE BEHAVIOUR.
The shame, guilt, lack of love, pain etc., we feel inside as an infant, child, adolescent and adult creates a mental, mechanical and emotional addictions.
As we emerge from infant to child to adolescent the shame and pain we felt as an infant or child starts to emerge and express its self as we enter adolescent years. Or for some, the shame pain coincidently shows up in their life. The shame and pain you experienced and stuffed deep down inside as an infant or child does not take on full form and manifestation expression into your life, until you enter your adolescent years and on into your adult years. However, the beatings, abandonment, denial, rejection, etc., you experienced as a child do have there own manifestation, such as of isolation, avoidance, escape in play, not wanting to grow up and or take responsibility, hiding, running, sugar, candy, etc.
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