Losing weight hasn't been an easy or pretty process. But I'm not losing motivation when I see stretch marks, loose skin, less boobs (well, this one sometimes gives me the sads), etc. They only mean by body is changing to fit the healthier lifestyle I want to lead. Plus, let's be honest, I have zero issues on getting surgery if the skin doesn't hold up. Just remember it's never to late to start or restart any of your goals. Be a better you for your damn self. 😘
Allow me to reintroduce myself... My name is Marissa. I came back to this account early last year sometime when I thought I was ready to love my body. The truth was, I still had a bit of mental growing to do. I would post on here about how I was working out but only to gain muscle and not to lose weight. The problem with that (aside from the fact that I was lying to every single one of you) is that I was still trying to change my body. I was still not genuinely happy with my body. And of course, working out turned back into wanting to shrink my body again- but it was totally fine in my mind because I ONLY wanted to lose 20 pounds. The problem with that is that weight loss for me the first time around was literally an addiction. When I first started, I wanted to lose ten pounds but ten turned to fifteen and fifteen turned into twenty and I ended up losing thirty. Great, right? BUT IT WAS NEVER GOOD ENOUGH. And even though I prenteded to be happy with how much I was able to shrink myself, I still got pissed every time I weighed myself and the number on the scale didn't change.
Tonight I finished reading Body Positive Power by @bodyposipanda. This book made every single thing about my struggle make sense. And even though I know it is going to take time, I am finally ready to love my body- for every single pound I've gained back, for every area that holds onto fat, for all my stretch marks and saddle bags, and for allowing me to live my life.
The truth is, I've literally struggled with body image issues my entire life. I remember hating my body as a child, as a pre teen, teenager, and on into adulthood. It never ended, it only got worse.
So here is me two years ago vs me three weeks ago. I actually LOVE the picture on the right and look forward to wearing whatever the hell I want from now on and loving more pictures of myself in the future and not allowing any fucking number to define me, whether it be on a scale or on a piece of clothing. ❤️
That was me then. This is me now. After reading @progress.not.perfection recent post I realized that this whole thing isn’t about losing getting down to a particular weight on the scale. How much weight you could move in the gym. Or the size of your jeans. YOU JUST NEED TO BE COMFORTABLE IN YOUR OWN SKIN. In the process of life, sometimes we get a little side tracked and forget the main reason we decide that it’s time for a change. I constantly hesitate when it comes to posting a photo because of some loose skin or a few stretch marks and take a million photos until I feel like I can’t see them but you know what. FUCK IT. They’re there. This is me. I think I’m looking good asf and I’ll STILL criticize myself but I’m starting to become more and more comfortable in my skin. Here’s to continuing this level of self love and here’s to the girls who feel like they’re not good enough. Babygirl, keep doing your thing, be proud of yourself and enjoy every aspect of your journey. #mandy#beauty#selflove#fuckyourbeautystandards#womenempowerment#transformationtuesday#life#believeinyourself#mondaymotivation#loveyourself#journey **and I know it’s not Tuesday but her post motivated the hell out me so I couldn’t wait 😌
It’s important to be proud of your body, even when you’re fat. I found myself having to fight through a lot to find that pride in the past. The picture on the left is a moment where I won.
The fact is that I think it’s total bullshit that we have special categories for ways in which women being sexy is acceptable. You can be a pre teen and naked on a porn site, but you can’t be a mom in her 40’s wearing a bikini on the internet without some troll telling you to put more clothes on.
It’s important for me to not ever be ashamed of what I look like. No matter what I always want to be proud of the way I look, and having confidence is the only way. But fighting thru societies standards for what is sexy or appropriate is just exhausting sometimes.
So that’s why I just do what I want anyway.
It can be hard to feel comfortable charging what we're actually worth because it feels so expensive. But if you a providing a service, you need to take into account your materials, expenses, time, and talent. It's easy to think it's better to charge at cost or lose a few bucks and get a couple customers than to not get a sale for your listed price, but overall it's not! I mean, yes we can make exceptions for things like getting testimonials and getting the word out there, but at a certain point you have to charge what you're worth and not back down from that, even if that means saying no to an opportunity. You are worth the money, baby. #uncustomaryselflove
It feels really good to be back!
Im not the type to take full body pictures often, but seeing the change that my body is going thru this pass couple of months is definitely a must to do so.
Learning to love myself has been a journey all by itself. Seeing my progress and seeing how im reaching my health goals makes me feel proud.
Im definitely not where i want to be but this is progress and the fact that im posting this picture shows i really dont care what anyone has to say about me.
Im so excited for the next couple of month and how i will continue to crush my goals.
Today's Instagram Challenge (which a week from being over and you can still get in on and be entered to win the prize for my favorite picture!) is to take a walk. 🚶♀️ I did a whole video about walking via wandering, exploring, and living loudly. You can check it out on my YouTube channel! What do you love about walking?? // 📷 @maurahousley#uncustomarylove#uncustomaryinthewild
To my spinal cord injury,
You forced me to grow up at the age of 14. You have been, and always will be the biggest reality check of my life. You forced me to realize that most friends are temporary, and some become family. You made me realize my family is my everything. As much as I hate you for what you have, and continue, to put me though I also have this weird love for you. You made me realize how important life is. You made me realize how strong and supportive my family is. You were some odd and unfamiliar glue that brought me closer to the people who truly matter. I would give you up in a heartbeat, but I would never give up the life lessons you have taught me. Because of you I am mentally strong. Because of you I am physically weak. Because of you I am me. You will always be a blessing and a curse 🥀 .
My shirt might say mimosas, but there was no #sundayfunday here today 😂 Instead I spent the day running errands, meal prepping, hopping on a team call with my #TMMsquad 😍, and setting myself up for a successful week! (We also got all of our wedding photos in which I will share my favs here soon!😍)
Now I’m relaxing with my new favorite face mask, hot shower + tea, and an early bedtime! My number 1 goal this week is to GET ENOUGH SLEEP! 🙌🏼
How do you spend your Sunday’s?! 👇🏼