How many of us have thought that when we meet someone special or begin a relationship with someone that we will then be content or happy with life?
I’m sure most of us have done exactly that at some point or another... I’ve been alone for a few years now. After a few consecutive failed relationships I decided to take some time to myself and reset myself, so to speak. Those who know me will know I’m a very giving person, I’m one of those people that wears their heart on their sleeve, almost to a fault. But it’s who I am and its how I’m wired. But one of the problems with that is, that when I get into a relationship, I give my whole heart too quickly and from that very moment it goes into a heavy free fall plummeting into the abyss of doom. I had this notion that if I tried to make someone else happy, they would make me happy, but that is clearly not how it works and I’ll tell you why. Its taken me a while to learn from those repetitive mistakes, a lot of lonely nights being tortured by loneliness, the yearning and tearing my mind apart as to why it keeps happening to me, but the plus side it did help me eventually feel somewhat comfortable being alone, or a bit used to it after a while, for that matter. Then just over a year ago I realised something, a light bulb moment occurred. I realised something along with a few other reasons, but they all pointed to the very same thing…
“I” wasn’t content, or happy with life. And through some of these relationships, I was searching for happiness in others to fill my own bucket of happiness, and a lot of the time, and as the saying goes, misery loves company. So sometimes I would land up with people who were just as unhappy in their own lives as I was, where we were both expecting to have our happiness buckets filled when neither of us had enough to fill even just one, which would without a doubt land up in disaster.
So I decided amongst other reasons, including this one, to take time to work on myself, by not looking for contentment or happiness in anyone, but myself.
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Words cant express how happy we feel for Jesus and Jasmin on their wedding day....such a humble and kind couple.. A very multicultural wedding!! half of their wedding guests were from the hindi congregation but that didnt stop them from dancing merengue,bachata and cumbia. the other half were form the spanish congregation but that didnt stop them from dancing hindi music!!! at the end of the day music has no language and we all just wanna have a good time!!! as long as the music is clean we can all enjoy it...dont you agree? #Texaswedding#nycwedding#spanishmeetshindi
Beep beep 🚗 drove 6 hours in total today with our medical team to Eastern State Hospital for new knowledge on how to help people as a case manager. Looking forward to getting back to my grind tomorrow.
Happy Tuzeday 🖖🏼