If I would have seen this body two years ago, I probably would have had a breakdown - that’s how disordered I was.
I would have thought that this healthy body was flawed, because it doesn’t look like the body of my then-favourite fitness model.
I would have beat myself up, because I was “too weak” to follow my food- and workout plan and “just suck it up”.
Today, I look at this body with love and compassion.
This body was never supposed to look like the body of a fitness model, even though I kept manipulating it to appear that way.
My body has been through so much, but my period-bloat today tells me that my body feels safe enough to actually get pregnant one day.
This wasn’t the case for years, because my period went missing for a long time.
Can I ask you for a favour?
This weekend, stop comparing your body to the body of someone else.
Start small and practice one thing:
For every mean thought you have about your body, say one nice thing instead.
For every “ugh, I hate my belly”, say one thing you thank you belly for.
Whether it’s the ability to grow a human being, the fact that it protects your organs or the gut feeling about people and situations that your belly provides every single day.
Your body is on your team, I promise ❤️ .
MENTAL HEALTH DAY! A lot of the time when people call out from work it’s because they have a cold, a fever or something visually physical that proves that they’re “under the weather”. More times than not, our mental health doesn’t get viewed as being under the weather because it’s a feeling. Stress is hard to see from the outside. While not all stress I bad stress, we still need to take time to heal, mentally. After completing the filming of @transform_20 I realized how mentally focused I had to be the entire time in ways that I wasn’t pushed before. So today, I’m taking a mental health day. To clear my mind, release the pressure and to enjoy not having to think too much! If you’re going through something, don’t hesitate to take a break or talk to someone. It really makes you feel a whole lot better. #positivelyselfish#tisfortransformation#mentalhealth#friday#dayoff#conqueryourmindtransformyourlife
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One of the major problems facing awareness of disability in our society is the lack of representation in major media including film and television. Having only 1% of characters on television being disabled is so far below any estimate of the percentage of disabled people in America. And then only allowing 5% of those characters to be played by somebody with an actual disability seems unfair, counterproductive and anti-inclusive.
"A mere five percent of television characters with a disability are played by an actor with a disability, according to a recent study."
"There are 587 series-regular roles on scripted network primetime television this fall. Only six of them have disabilities. Only one of those six is portrayed by a disabled actor."
I might start auditioning just to help better these stats. #TimeToGetAnAgent
Yesterday on my way back from Karachi, I was even luckier. I finally got to meet one of my sweetheart friends (+ crushes haha) in person, and they were everything I imagined them to be. And imagine, I’ve only known them through Film Industry platform for the past four years but never actually met them in person until this day, yet they did so much for me as though we were family. There's still so much yet to learn, but I've come a long way so far. And to have such brilliant people around me that are there for me and can withstand my annoying/stupid self is just unbelievable. I am far too lucky and thank you Farhan Saeed Butt & Urwa Tul Wusqua Hussain for the love and prayers. You people have my heart!! 💙💙
So this is my reminder for 24- home is really not just a place. It can most definitely be people too. And once you find those people who put your heart at ease when it’s going through a lot of anguish, you don’t let them go. In the blink of an eye I’ll be 19 and in another I’ll be 50. There should only be enough time given to those who push us to be our best, most whole and happy selves.
Me thinking about: how to become a better friend and ally in 2019, how to put my mental health first, all the plans I’ve made for this year and didn’t go after in the end and who will make it to next year eventually. 2017 has been my year of recovery, 2018 has been my year of trying out new ways and practicing what I learned, 2019 will be the year of adjustments. (While I write this I’m still in bed because today I hate everything and just wanna be left alone 🙃) #recovery
I didn’t know today was #NationalSuicideSurvivorDay It’s for those who have lost a loved one or knew someone who committed suicide. It really hits home for me. Most of you know I lost my step dad Mike to suicide and I’ve never known such pain. I still struggle with it after all of this time. He was a great man and I will forever be grateful for him raising me and never treating me anything less than his own. To now have my own battles with the same thing, I know how hard it is. People who don’t understand or have never been in the situation are naive and quick to say such things like it’s “the easy way out” or it’s “selfish”, etc. i know because I was one of them. Especially after Mike passed. But now that I understand...Now that I know what it feels like to be in that moment. To consider how much hurt you’ll cause others but be in pain yourself. I can’t imagine the pain he felt. How strong he had been for so long. I miss him everyday and he’ll never be replaced. I can say for a fact that my depression took a huge plunge that year in addition to some other experiences I’ll share later. I was lost. As far as I can remember, it was the real start of my journey. .
November is testing me. It is a month of when winter hits, when snow falls, when the wind gets colder, and the days get darker.
November is testing me. It is a month of when my environment is tense. People are stressed for holiday shopping, the weather and educational or professional deadlines.
November is testing me. It is a month when we all get chilled, when most people fall ill, when we feel much more depressed, and our motivation frosts before we can use it.
November is testing me.
I have never injured myself in my life. I have never been house bound, limited on as to what I am physically capable of doing, and lonely between the 2 flours of my own home.
I have never felt so trapped. I have never wanted to cry so bad, afraid that my pain won't ever leave, and that I'll never be independent again, running on my own two feet.
I have never experienced so many anxiety attacks within a week. I have never been so lost on how to cope without the use of exercises, walking, and fresh air to deal with my fears, my frustrations, and my racing mind.
November is testing me. November is mocking me. November is challenging me. November is mocking me.
November is proving to me I will get through this.
Slowly but surely, November is showing me that I will get through this.
So will you.
Schooling.. .Current focus and daily area of growth -🌱
With such a major focus on #mentalhealth in #NZ why the fuck isnt there better systems in place already to prevent messed up adults? Why is it a numbers game on who can be funded extra help in classes? In life? Why am I asking why? 🤯
Meditation, Self love, Being yourself, embracing our individuality, learning about life itself and our very existence.. .shouldnt be knowen as "alternative" or "weird" 🙄 We are the #universe, why do majority grow up oblivious to this? Or thinking its wrong to have these questions and thoughts? Stuck in a mentality that life is about acing our tests to get a good paying job while being treated like shit from those "above" us in the concrete jungle and acquiring mental health issues along the way from man made expectations and opinions 😶.. .as if thats all we were put on this planet to do WTF!!! So much pressure to fit in that stupid box from the day we enter the system.. .nope, fuck that! A good human, A good member in society starts from a good source of tools and self awareness as foundations to grow from 🌱 yet we are taught to seek approval and acceptance from external sources and follow a "one size fits all" education system and pyramid scheme.. . 🖕🏼🙄 Still a shit tone to learn personally I know and I accept that we will never know it all and thats a good thing.. .
Still.. .I will never conform. 🌱
. Just another "adult" trying to figure shit out before my own babies repeat this stupid cycle, wheres my tools at 🤔 Could be worse.. .Could also be better.💖 .
Self-care: The practice of taking an active role in protecting ones own wellbeing and happiness. In particular, during periods of stress.
What does #selfcare mean to you and how do you practice it ? Comment below!! ———————————-
A very overlooked form of self care I practice is self- reflection. If I’m feeling like things are going downhill in my life, I take time to myself and ask myself what can I improve before I start trying to see what life is “doing wrong.” The next time you’re feeling backed into a corner, take some time to yourself and think about how far you are from your past situation. Then think about all of the things you did to get where you are and reassure yourself that you can go further.
Self reflection is a form of self care because I believe you cannot fix anything if you’re not fixing/working on yourself 1st ☝🏾 #metalhealthawareness#mentalhealth#selfawareness#mentalhealthstigmafighter
Self-love (n): regard for one’s own well-being and happiness💛
Self-love is a concept many don’t understand. When you choose yourself instead of others,they call you selfish. When you accept compliments and acknowledge their truth, they call you cocky. When you post pictures of your body on social media, they call you arrogant and a show off. People judge too quickly, and they choose to be cruel because they don’t understand how long it took you to reach this point in your life. They don’t understand the internal battles you faced, the days you could barely look yourself in the mirror, and the tears you shed because you didn’t believe you were good enough. We live in a society that would rather see you fail and hate yourself than praise you and support you on your journey to self-love. They don’t understand that the reason you do these things is because you’ve learned to be at peace with yourself. You’re no longer fighting a battle with yourself everyday. Instead, you are supporting yourself, making yourself smile, and acknowledging that YOU are unique and beautiful. So continue to love yourself even when people call you arrogant and selfish. Post that picture for yourself. Accept that compliment without a worry in the world. You deserve to love yourself. It’s not selfish, it’s called being your biggest fan.
be easy on yourself
You're allowed to scream, you're allowed to cry, but do not give up 🦋
Just posting a little flashback to show how progress comes. This pic was taken in Hawaii back in August. I was not in a very good place at the time and was really struggling going out in crowds (which you constantly are in on the island in the summer...) I was having panic attacks in public and feeling self conscious 24/7. I had no control over my OCD and anxiety, and I honestly was not able to hide one bit of it. Now, I am in a much better place. I can go places on my own again, I drive every single day, I interact much more with my surroundings and the people that I meet. I am living a more full life. I still don’t enjoy being in crowds or going to the grocery store when it’s crazy busy, so I don’t. But, I am the one in control.
So what’s the secret? Whats the key? Honestly, there isn’t one. It’s a lifestyle. It’s a life change. It’s constantly reminding yourself that you are better than you think. It’s taking your medication every day and being okay with the fact that your body’s chemicals are not balanced without it. It’s waking up and forcing yourself out of bed and into the unknown, knowing that you have to get outside your comfort zone in order to live. It’s having breakdowns in your room after a major episode or a long day. It’s taking a bath and eating a friggin candy bar because quite frankly you deserve it after what you’ve been through. But it’s also eating vegetables and fruit to give your body nutrients. It’s going to therapy and appointments and actually applying the principles instead of going through the motions. It’s turning to religion or spirituality to get you through the moments when life seems too much.
So no, there’s not a key to success. True change and success is built on hard work. It’s built on days of success following days after failure. And yeah, a lot of it is based on faith. But the wonderful thing is, is that you CAN get through it. You can change. You can improve. Life and healing is not linear. It’s times of great sadness followed by great success. But the sadness and struggles remind of us how good the good times truly are.
I’m thinking of you- my dear friends- tonight and hoping that you can find happiness.
This is just a friendly reminder that you’re allowed to feel ALL the emotions. And a reminder that folks on social media post a carefully curated highlight reel. What you see is NOT always real life. It’s a slice of it. So when you need a reminder of what real life feels like, put your phone down & get out there for real human contact - whether that’s a lunch date, simply chatting with the person at the checkout stand or booking an appointment with a therapist or coach. Real connection is so important and it reminds us that we’re not alone, which is essential to not only our mental health but our physical health 💕In fact, research shows that those who aren’t lonely with lots of human connection live longer.
Bonus practice 👉 If you’re feeling totally disconnected from yourself, ask 1️⃣ “What am I feeling?” 2️⃣ “Where am I experiencing this feeling in my body?” 3️⃣ Begin to collect information about how you experience feelings in your body and ... 4️⃣ Then ask yourself 👉 “What do I need to move through this right now?” For example, if I’m feeling anxious. I’ll note, I’m feeling anxiety. I feel this anxiety in my chest. I need to step away and deep breathe or go for a walk or take a bath or call or meet a friend or write.
Your options are endless 🥰 Tell me - what’s one of your favorite self-soothing tools? 👇
🌻 YOUR PAST IS YOUR PROOF 🌻
If you ever need a reminder just reflect on your path and remember just how far you’ve come ✨
All the moments you doubted your survival.. you’re here, breathing. Be proud. Keep going, love your life. 🧡
Fuck anyone who disagrees with this statement “Sonya Spence was the voice of a generation.”
| S U N | and the soul... Let me tell you a little story about the “Soul & the Sun”, have you heard it?
Originally by Neale Donald Walsch and retold by Shusheel Croft over a cup of tea...
Once there was a little soul who sat on a bench talking to god...the soul said; “God you tell me I am perfect, I am an angel I am special just like all the other beings here, you tell me I am like a candle in the sun, with all the other candles which make up the sun, but I want to feel that I am special, I want to feel the light.” God replied with “since you cannot see yourself as the light when you are in light, we will sorround you with darkness.”
“Will I be afraid of the darkness” cried the little soul...“Only if you choose to be, there is nothing, really, to be afraid of, unless you decide that there is. You see, we are making it all up, we are pretending.”
Then God asked, what would you like to learn? The little soul replied; “well, it’s special to be helpful it’s special to be sharing, friendly, caring, it’s special to be considerate of others! I know what I want to be! I want to be the part of special called forgiving.”
“Who then to forgive?” God asked. There is no one to forgive I have made everyone perfect.”
Just then a friendly soul came forward and said “not to worry, I will help you. I will come down with your next life and do something for you to forgive.”
“But why? Why would you do that, what would cause you to slow your vibration to such a speed that your bright light would become dark and dense?
“Simple,” said the soul, I would do it because I love you...
You have done the same for me, don’t you remember? But do me one small promise! “Yes!” Replies the little soul...”in the moment that I do the worst to you that you could possibly imagine, in that moment, please remember who I really am.” .
And so the agreement was made. And the little soul went forth into a new lifetime, excited to be the light, which was very special, and excited to be that special called forgiveness.”
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When they ask... Where is the Love??? ❤️
Would they find it in You??? 😑🙏❤️
Inspire others to find Love...
within themselves ☀️
as you Love your own Self ❤️
Love today ❤️🙏❤️
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Something I've been trying to practice a lot is being much more appreciative and thankful of basically everything in my life.
I realized I found myself most miserable when I concentrated on what I didn't have. Rather it be a specific job, a group of friends I once had, being fit. Or in general just not where I want to be in life.
I started to write a list of everything I appreciated and it immediately made me smile. Not only appreciating more the wonderful people that already exist in my life, but even traits about myself. To me, it's so easy to point out a flaw. I feel like anyone can say something they don't like about themselves almost instantly. But when you admire the good qualities you do have, it makes you appreciate more the person you already are. I started to be thankful that I'm patient, that I'm respectful and always willing to help. I kept focusing on so much negative it blinded me in seeing the positive. Every morning I wake up and immediately I'm thankful that I even woke up. I have my loved ones pictures as my background so I can always see them. I put quotes up around my room to remind myself..to love what I have.
If you find yourself dwelling over people that were once in your life..think about the people that are currently here for you now. That means they are making the effort to stay. Embrace qualities you are proud of and you won't even have room to point out flaws.
I may not know most of you but know I sure as hell appreciate y'all!
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Welcome fam! The name is Saul and honestly I’m nervous but very excited. I never thought I’d see myself do something like this because I’ve always been private. I’ve kept to myself for reasons that some of you may relate to. I feel like I’ve been my own worst enemy and preventing my own growth..I’m at that point where I’m giving myself no choice but to be a better me. To Level Up⬆️ I want to document what changes I’ve implemented that’s helped me. Improving yourself and change can be hard, but it’s possible so let’s learn together cause you’re not alone..
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| K I N D N E S S | Today 13th November is World Kindness Day! :D .
It was a movement that began in 1997 in Japan, and the first world kindness conference was held in Tokyo officially a year later in 1998. .
“The purpose of world kindness day is to look beyond ourselves, beyond the boundaries of our country, our culture, our race, our religion; and realise we are citizens of the world.”
Get to know someone outside your usual comfort zone today! Tell me what you have learnt about this new person you met, what culture, how they choose to live their life, do they have a religion and what is their favourite food! ;)